Zon masa

 Bersangka baik dengan Allah..

#copypaste

Dalam dunia ni, semua benda bergerak dalam zon masa masing2.

Ada yg masih single...-

Ada yg nikah 20 ribu belanja, sebulan dah berpisah..

Ada yg dah nikah 10 tahun tapi masih belum ada anak.

Ada yg baru nikah bulan lepas, hari ni dah mengandung.

Ada yang kerja biasa, gaji biasa, punya rumah kereta simpanan 5-6angka..

Ada yang kerja hebat, gaji 4-5angka, masih berhutang sini sana, simpanan pun tiada..

Ada yg grad umur 23 tapi terpaksa tunggu 5 tahun sebelum dapat kerja tetap.

Ada juga yg grad umur 29 tapi lepas grad terus dapat kerja jawatan tetap.

Ada yg muda lagi umur 25 jadi CEO tapi umur 50 dah meninggal.

Ada juga yg umur 50 baru jadi CEO dan hidup sampai umur 90.

Zon masa kita semua tak sama...

Jadi tak perlu merasa kita 'tertinggal' hanya bila nampak org lain lebih berjaya,masa kita belum sampai...

Obama retired masa umur dia 55, tapi Trump 'bermula' pada umur 70.

Hanya zon masa mereka saja yg berbeza.

Tapi sama2 dapat jadi Presiden.

Ada yg dipanggil Datuk pada usia 47 tahun, dan ada yg dah ada cucu di umur yg sama...

Malah ada yg baru menimang cahaya mata pertama di umur yg sama...

Ada yg 'depan' dari kita...

Tapi ada juga yg 'belakang' kita.

Semua org bergerak dalam laluan yg berbeza pada zon masa yg berlainan.

ALLAH ada perancangan berbeza utk kita semua.

Jgn dengki, jgn sakit hati, jgn sedih...

Mereka bergerak dgn zon masa mereka dan kita pun ada zon masa sendiri.

You are not late.

You are not early

You are just on time.

Jgn stress.

Keep going..teruskan dgn apa yg dikerjakan.

Percayalah bahawa perancangan ALLAH jauh lebih baik, rezeki kita telah dicatit olehNya.

Siapa nak jaga kita bila kita dah tua?

Ada org, dia susah hati kerana belum bertemu jodoh. 

Difikiran nya siapa lah yg akan jaga aku bila aku dah tua nanti.

Ada org, dah berkahwin tapi belum punya anak, pun terfikir siapa kah yg akan jaga aku bila aku dah tua nanti.

Ada org, ada anak, tapi hanya seorang, pun terfikir, kalau dia kerja jauh siapalah yg nak jaga aku nanti.

Ada org, anaknya semua lelaki.....

Juga terfikir siapalah yg akan jaga aku nanti. 

Nak ke menantu perempuan aku nanti jaga aku???

Ada org, anaknya semua perempuan, sama juga. 

Terfikir kalau semua tu nanti ikut suami masing2.. siapalah yg nak jaga aku nanti.

Apa masalah kita sebenarnya?

Kita letakkan masa depan kita di tangan manusia.

Di tangan anak.

Di tangan suami.

Walhal yg jaga kita itu ALLAH.

Berapa ramai org yg anaknya ramai, cukup nisbah lelaki perempuannya, namun masih terabai hidup bersendirian di rumah usangnya sehingga meninggalnya juga seorang diri.

Berapa ramai juga org yg saya jumpa hidupnya tidak bertemu jodoh, namun pada usia 60 70 80 masih sihat, boleh urus diri jauh lebih baik daripada org yg usianya baru jejak 50-an namun sudah sakit lutut jalan bertongkat walau anak2 ada di sisi menjaga. 

ltulah kita kata rezeki.

Dan rezeki itu hak ALLAH.

Yakin

Yakin

Yakin

Jgn runsingkan kerja ALLAH.

Runsingkan kerja kita yg asyik tak siap ni.

Jgn runsing belum ketemu jodoh

Jgn bising masih belum ada zuriat

Jgn sedih hanya kerana beranak sorang

Jgn kalut kalau hanya ada anak lelaki

Jgn cemas jika hanya ada anak perempuan.

Lebih dari itu jgn takbur sangat kita ada jodoh, anak ramai, cukup laki perempuan.

Jgn pertikaikan...

"eh nanti tua siapa nak jaga kau." 

Kita sendiri pun belum tahu nasib kita nanti

Sempat ke kita tua? 

Masa depan kita sentiasa dlm kekuasaan ALLAH.

Dan ALLAH itu Maha adil.

Setiap org akan dapat apa yg ALLAH kata dia layak dapat. Kuatkan pergantungan kpd ALLAH, itu yg paling penting.

Pendek kataALLAH ADA.Jangan takut

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ALLAH sebaik-baik perancang ALLAH sebaik-baik pelindung

Stories once I've been told

Someone once told me this.. 

How she was so in love.. 

How she would go through high n low.. 

Cross the ocean, hike the mountain.. 

Someone once told me this.. 

She has had the best person by her side.. 

Cared for her.. 

Sacrifice and dedicate all his life to her.. 

Someone once told me this.. 

Her life was upside down.. 

Nobody would rather be with her.. 

She had been beaten, cursed and hated.. 

I've once told people this.. 

I've been deeply in love.. 

I had someone that cared for me.. 

I've been hurt inside out.. 

I've once told people this.. 

Don't give too much, that it'll hurt.. 

Appreciate the one who cares.. 

Do let go and moved on.. 

I did told people those..

Abah

Abah..

80years ago, today..

u were born to this world..

unfortunately, 14years ago, u left.. w/out saying goodbye

when i was a child, u treat me like a princess..

i would do as what u did..

i would always be by your side..

u were my world..

but when i grew older we kept a distance..

perhaps to made me look high up for u, so that i won't walk all over your head..

but the older i got, the less connected we've been..

i never felt what it was like of a father's love anymore..

but once i'm mature enough to understand, then only i did realised..

u cared for me..

u always think of me..

eventhough i've repeatedly let u down, still, u loved me..

then, i got to understand u..

i tried to give what i can to u..

u were easily moved & pleased..

eventhough u won't say it to anyone, but i can clearly see it through your action & reactions..

eventhough it was quite late to notice all those, but it was a blessings that i manage to see it before it was too late..

eventhough we were not as close as like when i was younger, but u're still the best abah i could ask for..

we never talk to each other..

we never endure one's presence..

but when u left..

there's a wound in my heart that will never heal..

a scar that'll never fade..

it felt like there was a hollow that will never going to be filled..

if only u were still here, i strongly feel that u would be so proud of what i've become n approves all of my choices n loves the company that i'm having..

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thank u abah..

for giving me a life..

for loving me unconditionally..

for forgiving me of all the bad choices that i've made..

for accepting everything that i gave..

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semoga roh abah ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman.. Ameen..

exhausted

 please let me sleep forever

Salam PKP 3.0 day 2

 Assalamualaikum..

Salam PKP 3.0 guys.. this is soo sickening.. it's terrible.. the virus is spreading like crazy..  seems like it has mutated into something worst.

Please be safe.. my family members were some of the positive covid 19 patients.. 1 is still in hospital.. 5 Alhamdulillah dh getting better.. 3 that were -ve Alhamdulillah masih sihat n hopefully keep on sihat..

Lets just stay at home during this lockdown.. hopefully we could see the numbers dropping.. it's 7000 over case today.. hopefully within a week the number could drop drastically..

Please take care of yourselves n others.. don't be selfish please.. it's not a conspiracy.. it is real.. 

It's so hard for some ppl to survive during this pandemic.. but we are willing to, just so that we could be case free.. 

Even for me, we couldn't work even wfh during this lockdown.. n company were not able to pay us salary.. but still i'm thankful that at least i'm still having a job to go back to, in shaa allah.. still having food on the table, still having home to stay in, having bed to sleep on.. Alhamdulillah..

Really hoping that this pandemic is going to be over soon.. even it's just a hope.. but do have faith in Allah.. HE knows best, and HE won't test us for something that is beyond our limit.. 

Keep safe..

Have faith..

#whattocook?

Rendah diri...depression??

 Assalamualaikum..

Tetiba mlm ni terasa mcm nk meluahkan rasa hati..

Selama berpuluh tahun aku hidup, perasaan insecure, rendah diri, low self esteem, takut dan mcm2 rasa negatif yg sentiasa ada dlm kepala..

Dari kecik sampai ke tua ni, aku sentiasa cuba untuk atasi perasaan negatif dalam diri tu..

Aku sentiasa cuba untuk cabar diri.. walau sentiasa kecundang, akan end up memalukan diri sendiri, tapi i don't quite care.. i think..

I want to have self confidence.. i wanna feel proud of myself..

But it was never a successfull tries..

Dari sekolah rendah, aku akan join apa saje aktiviti sekolah.. aku akan selalu join acara sukan sekolah cth mcm lari pecut, lari berganti2, bola baling, maraton, bola tampar, lempar cakera, lontar peluru, lompat tinggi, lompat jauh n lain2, aktiviti lain mcm pertandingan muzik, dikir barat, pertandingan bercerita, bersyarah, pidato, berlakon, pantomen, dj radio sekolah, nasyid, ketua kelas, ketua persatuan, camping n segala neka laa.. sampai cikgu2 semua kenal aku.. haha.. tapi i'm still a biggest loser..

I was never able to do the best.. i'll freaked out.. rasa malu gile.. felt so embarrassed that i tend to sabotage myself.. haha.. i'm so weird..

Tapi every now n then, almost everyday, there will always be times where i feels like doing some harmfull things to myself.. haha..

Coz i wanted to know how it feels if i was to die..or perhaps something really terrible happen, what would that feels like? What would others feel bout me.. n perhaps everyone that i love would felt relieved or satisfied or would they ever feel sad??

Is it a stress? Is this depression? I don't know.. 

Bila tgh bwk motor or kete, tetiba rasa mcm nak langgar je lori depan tu.. 

Pastu tetiba rasa mcm sedih plak.. semua bnd nak sentap.. 

Kadang, i sing to ease the feelings..

Tapi most of the time, istighfar laju2 n byk2 kali.. baru rasa negatif tu hilang..

Penat nak rasa down.. selalu rasa diri unworthy, rasa semua org benci, rasa bodoh sgt2, rasa mcm when i made even a slight mistake, it's a huge thing that will flip everything upside down..

Sometimes i tried to make jokes.. it's just my way to show that i might be ok..

Tapi dalam hati, dlm kepala aku, xtau mcm mane serabutnye laa.. that's y i was never good with words..

Susah nak really cakap apa yg perlu.. i felt alone.. rasa tersisih.. rasa mcm dibenci.. rasa mcm x guna.. haha..

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Edited: Apr'21

Tapi, after a while, I took some times alone, tried to remember all the things that my husband said.

I need to try something else to reduce the burden in my heart.

At the moment, I was unable to recover from the heartbroken.

Then, one day, after Maghrib, I open the Holy Quran. I start to recite Al-Fatihah and the first surah.

At that moment, I felt like something struck my heart. my eyes became teary. I felt some relive that I haven't felt for quite sometimes.

Allah!! This might be it. It's been so long..

From that moment onwards, I never felt the empty feelings much. I don't need to sing till midnight anymore. 

No more perasaan nak hiris tangan bile nampak pisau, nak terbalikkan kuali panas ke, nak langgar lori semua Alhamdulillah hilang..

I can smile much.. I'm loving the feelings.

So, I believed, semua yang terjadi, yang orang kate ubat depression is kembali pada Allah, is TRUE.

They never specifically said on HOW to kembali pada Allah.. Jaga Solat, tapi do some additional, bacalah Al-Quran. Paksa diri.. In shaa Allah, kemanisan nya akan dirasai..

 Don't trust me. But, TRUST IN ALLAH..

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Always!!!!

 Always

Bon Jovi

This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see, I've always been a fighter
But without you, I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby, always
And I'll be there forever and a day, always
I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine
'Til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you, always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers, try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I wish I was him
With these words of mine
To say to you 'til the end of time

That I will love you baby, always
And I'll be there forever and a day, always

If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby, always
And I'll be there forever and a day, always
I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine
'Til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you, always

Always, always

I was busy

I lied and said I was busy..

I was busy..

But not in a way most people understand..

I was busy taking deeper breath..

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts..

I was busy calming a racing heart..

I was busy telling myself I am okay..

Sometimes, this is my busy..

And I will not apologize for it..

#Credit:b. oakman

-Speechless-

 Tiredness>Helpless>Sadness>Worthless>Loneliness>Dying from inside

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I see u..

From afar..

I'm too afraid..

How I wish u would have looked at me..

Once..

As I look at u now..

Oh how I wish u could have felt the beats in my heart..

So violent.. 

As I see u..

Each and everytime..

But..

When I don't see u..

I imagined that u were right here..

So I smiled..

Missing u from an unknown land..

I & U

U..

I have always crave more of U..

I felt so empty without U..

I will be lost in time when U are not around..

In the alphabetical order, I and U are far apart.. 

That I wish to move U right beside..

For every hardship for I to get to U..

It's worthwhile for each steps I went through..

As when I get to U, the warmth that U beholds, I was drown into U even more..

I am so lost without U..

U are my guiding star.. U shine the brightest when I need it the most..

So that I could find the route home, back to U..

For the I and U are a total different..

But I will always ❤️ U..

#Thanks to U

#JJ & JJ

Teguran

Beberapa bulan lepas, seorang kawan saya nak beli handphone baru. Setelah 7 tahun guna handphone lama, memang kena beli yang baru juga untuk memudahkan urusan harian.

Speaker rosak, bateri tahan hanya 30 minit. Kamera blur habis. 

Cuma dia minta bayar dua kali. Saya ok saja sebab dia ni memang pemurah. Masa guna kereta waja dulu, kalau rosak je dia lah orang pertama akan bank in atau transfer walaupun saya tahu dia bukan ada duit sangat.

Tiba-tiba satu hari dia whatsapp.

"Abu, aku bayar duit baki handphone nanti boleh?"

"Oh takpe. Take time bro. Ada masalah ke?"

"Takde. Cuma tu lah. Gaji lewat sikit"

"Bereh"

Saya pun ok saja. Moga dimudahkan urusannya. Cuma hati macam tak sedap. Ingat nak ziarah dia. Selang beberap hari, saya pun pergilah ke kedai dia sebab kebetulan ada servis laptop berhampiran kedai dia kerja.

"Azri takde. Berhenti"

"Bila bos?"

"Saya tak tahu"

Bos dia pun macam layan tak layan. Saya telefon azri terus. Lima minit bercakap, saya terus letak dan pecut ke kawasan rumahnya. Saya nak dengar sendiri dari mulutnya.

Ya.

Rupanya, dia dah berhenti kerja. Tapi dia tak bagitahu saya. Hari yang dia tak dapat nak bayar duit handphone yang dibeli, rupanya hari tu dia berhenti.

"Macam ni bu. Hari tu aku nekad berhenti sebab aku nak berniaga. Aku nak cuba kerja lain pula. Sebab kalau berniaga ni, aku ada masa dengan famili. Nak niaga depan rumah je"

Saya angguk dengar.

"Aku dah bagitahu bos sebulan awal lagi. Hari nak berhenti, bos bagi gaji. Aku pun pegang sampul macam nipis je. Biasa tebal. Sekali aku buka RM127 je ada. Gaji aku RM1200. Aku terus patah balik tanya dia. Dia kata, dia lupa nak tolak kwsp aku. Jadi, kali ni gaji dia tolak bulan-bulan yang dia tak carum"

Allahu. Terdiam saya.

"Pastu, kau minta tak? Kau tak cakap dengan bos balik?"

"Aku tak tahu nak cakap apa. Aku tahan je. Aku minta ihsan dia. Kesianlah dekat aku. Sewa rumah lagi. Bil. Anak bini. Aku memang down sangat masa tu"

Azri terus pulang. Masa dia menunggang motor, tiba-tiba ada kereta hon dan minta dia berhenti sebab pemandu tu kata dia bawa motor macam orang blur. Lampu merah pun langgar je.

"Aku memang blur bu. Aku tak tahu nak cakap apa. Dengan kos hidup yang tinggi ni, aku ada hanya RM127"

Berbulan berlalu, dia tak tahu nak buat apa.

Setiap kali lepas subuh, dia akan ke surau. Lepas solat, menangis sampai tertidur. Tiada apa yang tinggal.

Satu hari, tuan rumah datang ketuk pintu. Dia terus ajak anak isteri menyorok dalam bilik. Tutup semua laptop. Dah dekat dua bulan tak bayar sewa. Dia rasa tuan rumah macam nak halau dia.

Tiba-tiba tuan rumah bersuara dari luar,

"Azri, saya bukan nak minta sewa. Bukan nak halau awak. Saya nak bagitahu, kalau awak susah takpe. Sewa bulan lepas dan bulan ni saya halalkan"

Azri bagitahu,

"Masa tu aku malu sangat. Aku keluar dan minta maaf berdiam diri pada tuan rumah"

Tuan rumah kata takpe. Ada duit nanti bayarlah. Sementara nak cari kerja ni.

Kemudian esoknya, Azri cerita dia ke surau lagi selepas subuh. Habis solat, tiba-tiba ada seorang pakcik ni datang mendekati dia.

"Assalamualaikum"

"Waalaikumsalam" jawab Azri.

"Kamu ni, pakcik tengok dah sebulan lebih tak tinggal subuh di surau ya. Hari-hari ada"

Azri tersenyum saja. 

"Macamni. Pakcik ni ada kebun. Hasil jualan kebun tu pakcik memang tak ambil duitnya. Biasanya pakcik kumpul dan bagi pada sesiapa yang pakcik rasa nak bagi. Jadi, pakcik rasa nak bagi kamu lah. Boleh?"

Kawan saya Azri ni cerita sambil menahan sebak. Bertakung airmatanya.

"Kau tahu bu. Aku ikut dia balik subuh tu, dan di tangan aku, pakcik tu bagi RM2600. Dua bulan gaji aku yang bos aku tolak dan tak bayar sebulan lagi. Aku menangis sungguh. Aku terduduk kat situ juga"

Pakcik tu pesan kat aku,

Gunalah duit ni untuk mulakan hidup baru. Selesaikan semua hutang-hutang. Jangan putus asa. Allah itu Maha besar dan Maha Kaya.

Kalian,

Begitulah kasih sayang Allah pada kita. 

Biasanya, memang Tuhan akan buatkan kita menangis sungguh padaNya.

Maka, sebelum kita nak marah-marag dengan ujian, nak menyalahkan keadaan, buntu dimana nak mulakan,nak selesaikan masalah dan lain-lain,

Kembalikan dahulu semuanya kepada Allah.

Mohon sedar diri yang kita ni tiada langsung modal untuk berdepan dengan dunia dan akhirat melainkan berharap belas kasihan Allah kepada hamba yang diciptakan penuh kegagalan! 

Kita semua sedar kalau gagal tandanya tak cukup menangis lagi! 

Nak berusaha sehabis mungkin guna kederat atau tulang empat kerat itu, sesungguhnya jauh lebih mudah daripada nak memberi airmata untuk Allah, menangisi dosa dan salah kita yang banyaknya.

Dia, iaitu Allah terlalu cinta kepada rayuan hamba yang memohon itu ini dariNya. 

Tuhan tunggu itu. Menunggu hambaNya datang merayu. Bersujud dan berlutut, hingga tersembam kerana mahukan Allah dahulu.

Lalu, perlahan-lahan Allah ambil hati kita, dan Allah kembali berikan dunia semula.

Untuk kalian yang diuji begini, panduannya ada di atas.

Percayalah, keajaiban itu ada pada mereka yang percaya.

Percaya yang pertama. Beriman kepada Allah.

#sweeterapi

#credittoAbuHurairahAsifa

PKP 2.0 Day #2

 Assalamualaikum..

Hari ni masuk hari ke 2 PKP utk 6 negeri dalam Malaysia.. So far masih terkawal.. Jumlah berapa kes baru and all, aku dh lost dah.. Penat laa nak tengok hari2 remain 2k je kes..Huhuhu.. Semoga dengan pelaksanaan PKP 2.0 ni akan berkurang kes2 ni.. Inshaa Allah..

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Dah 3 hari tak lalu makan.. Hati masih sedih.. Heartbroken!!! Terasa kehilangan.. Sunyi sepi je hari2.. Walau ade yg cuba nak menceriakan, tapi kesedihan di hati tak mampu nk dipadamkan.. :(

Mohon doakan aku cepat sembuh dari penyakit hati ni..

Susah betul bila dah tua ni.. Cepat sangat rasa pelik2.. Lol..

Kbai!!

Addiction

I keep trying to remember the main..

The voice that shivers my vein..

Now i could hear it once again..

They are not the same.. But the trembles making me faint..

If the addiction is a sin..

I apologize as to keep being the sinners, but i cant help to being addicted over and over again..

If the addiction is a sin..

Help me Lord to stop longing for it again..

#NQ

Merajuk tak dipujuk..

Hati terkesan.. 

Ditinggalkan tanpa bingkisan pesanan..

Mencari kekuatan.. 

Menghilangkan kesedihan.. 

Untuk aku berdepan dengan keadaan..

Kesedihan yang tak berkesudahan..

Bantu aku Ya Allah, semoga hilang segala beban perasaan..

Agar aku mampu memeruskan perjalanan..

Dan bangkit dari kedukaan..

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Salam Tahun Baru 2021...It has been Sooo Looonnnnggggg...

 Assalamualaikum....

Oh emm gee!! It's been so freakin long since last i post anything..

It has been rocky life i'm living for the past few years..

As the Covid-19 pandemic that has been happening since a year ago, also for the flooding, here n there, but life still go on.. Hope for the better, Pray for the worst to end.. Ameen!!!

PKP starting tomorrow..Allahu..save our people, save our country, save our muslims our there Ya Allah..

For all that's going to be WFH, Alhamdulillah ya'll still have work.. There are so many others being laid off due to economy worsen day by day.. Hopefully there'll still hopes for all of us.. #Prayhard

Hope everybody is healthy n safe.. #kitajagakita

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Well, what makes me come back to this blog kinda thing?

What a funny story though.. But lets just say, a very looonggg lost special fren of mine suddenly appear after 20+ years.. N i've been asked to start my writing again.. Ok laa.. I'll try..

This is specially dedicated to u.. hahaha.. #konon..

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Lame sgt xmenulis.. Banyak sangat nak ditulis.. Tapi end up xtau ape nak ditulis.. I'd rather talk directly though.. Haha.. 

Anyway, Kucing4 kesayangan mummy, sadly they've crossed the rainbows.. Nothing can make me feels less guilty for not being able to take them back with me..😢

I tried to feed the strays, pet them once a while,  to lessen the burden, to reduce the feels of lost.. (i 😭 everytime i see their pics or when the memory of them crossed my mind)

Done.. Tak nak dah story pasal dorg..Nanti nanges lagi..huhu..

Anyhow, sekarang iols dah memulakan hobi baru.. 

Anggur ID: Isabella

Alhamdulillah berhasil.. Selalu sgt pegi Cameron mesti ajak incik suben petik anggur tapi xpenah nye dpt.. Sekarang, Alhamdulillah.. Hamek laa.. Petik byk2.. Cuma nak makan xsedap.. "Mashammm mcm muka pak aji jugak"

Byk lagi yg aku tanam sebenarnya.. Ade mulberry besar, muberrry giant, blackberry, kunyit, mint, kangkung n macam2 laa.. 

Balckberry je yg belum berbuah lagi.. 3 kali berputik n memberi harapan pelesu.. Ciskek betul.. Xpe laa.. Belum rezeki merasa lagi.. Belum dapat skill tanam blackberry 😅

Hmm.. ok, sekarang dah takde idea nk tulis2 ape.. dah tuo ni, otak tepu sangat.. acaner nak g belajar nih agaknye? Kot2 mcm SPM dulu, baca sebaris xphm.. ulang 2 kali lagi xpaham.. kite try baca dalam mimpi plak ape macam.. Dengkur sampai pagi..😜

Xpe laa.. ade idea nti cikjun cuba lagi.. 

#kitajagakita

#missthegoodolddays

#rindu

Kerinduan dan Terkilan..

Rindu..

Suatu perasaan yang terlalu mendalam..

Tiada fizikalnya.. 

Hanya dapat dirasa.. 

Hadir tanpa dipinta.. 

Hadir tanpa dipaksa..

Hadir tanpa mengenal siapa..

Rindu pada yang tiada..

Rindu yang tiada penghujungnya..

Menjadikan hati merasa terkilan.. dan terbeban..

Terlalu rindu.. 

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There's literally no words could ever describe how it feels.. 

"I feel you" is never suited to what's true.

Its too deep to compare..

Its too complicated to say..

It's there and will never go away..

It's too close, but yet too far from display..

Jan..

I wanted to tell a story about a young girl named Jan.. She once was a naive young girl, with hopes of 'how i wish to' always in her mind..

Her best friend was a hanging mirror in the closet.. where she seek for advice and tell her secret..

She's been hurt, she's been loved, she's been hated.. But she keep that at the back of her mind, lock it down let it drown, but never forget..

Her first love was once a genius.. She keep him close to her heart but he was never near..  She has hopes, she has dreams, but it was never really serious..  As it was all kept tightly only in her head, right at the back of her ear..

'How i wish to' keep him to herself.. But perhaps she was not the best choice for himself..

'How i wish to' have done it differently.. But then, she'll never get to have this feelings internally.. Whereby it helps her to get through life daily.. 

She's been loyal.. Having him in her heart like a royal.. Till one day it brokes her moral.. To have heard that it was terminal..

She cries out to her best friend, the mirror.. Where she got herself an answer.. 

Goodbye to the royal, you will be missed.. But it's now her turn to get her bliss..

She holds her head up, chin high.. She crossed her fingers.. Ready for the new adventures..

Hope for the best, pray for the worst..

As days passed by, never once Jan forgotten the promise that was broken but her heart has lessen to live in rememberance..

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Assalamualaikum..

Hari ni kite mengikut incik syg dtg opis yer.. Why? sebab afterwards nak p soping sat kt Mid Valley..

Coz today was last day sale branded handbags kt Cititel Hotel.. 

Since my bag pn dh hancorrr, it's time to change to new one... Hehehe..

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Anyway, yesterday was our jalan-jalan cari makan time.. Menu pilihan kami adelah EXOTIC food.. 

At first we were planning to go to Sg. Besar, Selangor, but then since it was already noon n we were afraid that when we reached there, the restaurant was already closed, so we changed our destination to Seremban, Negori Sembilan yawww..

We were planning to eat landak, rusa, ayam hutan and lobster..

So, Restoran Nelayan, Rahang Negeri Sembilan laa tempat tujuan kami..

We reached there around 3pm.. It's just nearby town of Seremban.. After the KGV school, there was a petrol station SHELL, take the left exit.. Then, the restaurant was just on the right side..

Nih gambar restoran nye yg aku copy paste from other blogger.. Sebab aku lupe nk hamek sendiri gmbr depan restoran tu.. Hihi.. 

Credit to http://langgas.blogspot.com/2009/05/restoran-nelayan-seafood.html 

Anyway, kami dok laa ushar2 makanan yg ade.. Since kami smp pun dh agak petang, so makanan dh x byk laa.. Ini je laa menu yg menarik perhatian kami.. Gulai puyuh, gulai rusa, gulai udang galah, terung sambal, sayur sket, ulam-ulaman dan sambal tempoyak..

Untuk penggemar sambal tempoyak, disarankan hamek banyak3 yer.. sobab ae, mmg melotop tekau sambal tempoyak ae tu... Perghhh!! 2 kali den tambah tekau.. Tambah tempoyak, tambah nasik.. Hiksss!!!

Puyuh nye, mmg tip top.. Banyak daging n serius sedap.. Rasa cam nak tapau lagi 2 ekor utk ratah.. Huhu.. Daging rusa tu plak, rasa rusa tu mcm xd sgt.. Tapi dr segi tekstur dia mmg same.. N taste-wise marvellous. We love it.. 

Some comments for this restaurant, the food was delicious.. Mutu masakan dari segi rasa, den buleh bg 5bintang.. Bab gulai n sambal tempoyak je ye.. Yang terung sambal tu byk minyak sket.. Tapi still sedap..

Yg paling xbleh tahan, nmpk x udang sekor melintang dlm pinggan tu.. Haaaaa..tang tu masalah sket.. Xbpe fresh sgt.. Hancor n mcm lain macam sket..

Besides that, everything else about the food was nice... 

Bab udang yg problem tu, nasib baik mereka ni agak prihatin laa.. Bile kite komplen ade problem, they don't charge for it.. Nice!! At least we dont pay for what we dont eat..

Harga utk menu di atas;
Terung sambal: RM1.50/piece.
Puyuh gulai: RM5/piece.
udang galah: RM25/piece
gulai rusa: RM12/piring.
sayur: RM2/piring.
ulam-ulaman: RM2.50/piring

Utk makanan2 ni, tips nye, letak dlm piring is better than just put in your plate of rice.. Why? As what I've been told, the price is just the same.. So, rugi laa if letak dlm pinggan je.. Coz we tend to put less in our plate, but still paying the price per-serving.. Right??

Btw, 2 keping ni je gmbr yg den hamek.. Eksaited melampau nk makan.. Pehtu plak lapar sgt memasing.. Kelam kabut nk mkn.. Tu yg x sempat laa nk hamek2 gmbr lauk pauk sgla tu..

Btw katenye ade menu landak.. But when we asked, for the time being they are in process of applying/renewing license again, so no landak for now.. Perhaps by next year only the'll be serving the landak again.. Huhuhu.. Kempunan.. Nampak kan muke kempunan x dpt landak tu?? Hehehe..

Kedai ni bukak dr pagi smp ke 12am, mengikut kate blogger lain.. Aku x plak igt nk tanya..

Tapi sesape yg berminat nk try makanan ni, bleh laa pegi je kt Precint 1, dekat ngan Masjid Putra, Putrajaya.. Tu cawangan nye.. Kt putrajaya tu, restoran nye bukak smp kul 9mlm.. Tak perlu pegi jauh2 mcm kami ni utk mkn.. Tapi kami ni org nogori, so xbest laa pegi yg shortcut pny tempat.. But. next time myb nk try jgk laa pegi kt branch ni plak.. Nk tgk smda rasa nye same ke x dgn kt Rahang ni.. ^_^

Anyway, next kami plan nk ke Sg. Besar plak utk makan landak dlm projek jalan2 cari makan kami next edition.. Hahaha.. Bajet retis.. 

I guess that's all for now.. 

*Miss my dearest Beburn, Cindy, Lucky n Cinda sooooo very7777 much..*

WEEKENDSSSSS!!!!!

Heyya...

Eh.. Assalamualaikum wbt.. ^_^

Happy weekends uolss.. Me today at my "new" workplace.. Haha.. Actually today was only to accompanying syg only.. I thought they have the access to the server, since it was written as "Public", but unfortunately no.. So, just "nganga" and surfing2 only laa..

Anyway, Alhamdulillah I already got the job here at THRS. Report duty on April Fool yawl.. But for these 3 days, 20~24th I have to come here for handover from their resigning staff.

Alhamdulillah the good news was told on my birthday!! What a great birthday gift this year. So, I immediately tender my resignation, start on the 1st Mar'14.

When I gave to that aunty, she ask me y.. SO, I told her that here got more benefits.. So, she can't argue with that..

For all my work there, I was able to settle most of it already.. Nobody wanna take over my things.. It's ok.. I'm ok with that.. As long as I've settle all my things, that's no longer my responsibilities if they do not know how to do..

Anyway,

I'm on the UK team.. My 1st day of handover it was the UK team manager's last day.. Erkk..
My 2nd day handover, the Finance manager's last day.. Double erkkk...

Most of the typical answer was, company's moving to Damansara Height.. Hmmm.. Adoiii... Finding new job again?? We'll see first.. It's quite embarrassing quitting without a fight.. Feels like a looser..

But, seriously, I've start to consider already.. Y?? I've already have a knowledge of doing full set account.. Here, there's another person doing the fullset.. My job was major in RECONSILATION only.. Receipt recon, bank recon, some JV & PV key in, refund.. Part receivable, part payable.. That's all....

And 3 days of handover was not enough!!! I need at least 2 weeks laa.. My RAM was quite slow.. I need time to digest all of this.. 20over tasks to be handover in 3 days??

Even LKW I need 1 month to be able to catch up.. But, after 1 year only I start to see the overview of fullset account.. What a looser..

Perhaps I would try and do 1st.. The things become a nightmare is because I keep thinking of the time.. Also, on my 1st day on 1st April, I need to do the recon and submit to the UK team before the 4th.. This is insane.. I still confused with the things and thinking of other tasks also..

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Anyway, I'm happy to leave LKW.. Thanks 4 the opportunity & cooperation there.. I've learned a lot..

Start new life, new job, new environment, new frens, new style, and more colourful life... ^_^

LKW, u will be missed..

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Anak4 mami, please pray hard that I'm gonna be able to take u back soon.. I miss u all a lotttttttttttt....

Please take care of urselves okay...

Ya Allah, peliharalah anak4 ku di sana.. Permudahkanlah aku mengambil mereka semula.. Moga mereka sentiasa dlm keadaan sihat..

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Anyway, yesterday got call from my mom.. Saying that my nephews got into accident.. Pa'an n Boolat..

As usual, Pa'an was being stubborn, not taking adult's advice.. Took mak's motorcycle and ride to kg.. Then, suddenly another vehicle came out of junction without noticing them.. So, to avoid hitting the vehicle, he was out of control.. So, his knee & armed was quite badly injured.. Bulat was injured on his face..

Hopefully they turn out fine..

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Anyway, that's all for now.. Till next time..

I love my anak4, Beburn, Cinda, Cindy n Lucky.. I missed them sooo much..